No Alarms and No Surprises
This is in no way a promise to start posting regularly again, but I felt the need to post some sort of update. I’ve lost my inner drive to blog. I may get it back someday, and I may not. To anyone out there still listening, I give you a great big “hello!”
LIFE
I have moved out of my apartment and into a condo a short ways out of the city. I bought it at a very expensive price–and then the economy tanked. My condo is now worth $35,000 less than I payed for it. But, in general, that is my luck when it come to finances. Perhaps I could charge money to disclose exactly what financial decisions I make: what stocks I buy, what I’m investing in, where I’m buying real estate etc. I’m sure people would pay a mint, knowing that if they do the exact opposite, they will be millionaires.
But I love living out here in this little town. I love my thirty minute country drive past baby cows and marshy ponds to get to work. I love the freshness of the air and the sweet smell of farmland. Unfortunately, I miss the city life. I truly was meant to live smack dab in the middle of a bustling downtown. I will survive.
TRAVEL
Next week I am going to Victoria, BC (otherwise known as one of my favorite places on the planet). It’s just for a few days, but I hope it will rejuvenate my body, spirit, and mind. I can’t wait to watch the crashing waves, and browse the quirky shops. I look forward to breakfast at Rebar and lunch at the blue carrot cafe. Whale watching and ghost hunting are definitely in order.
In even bigger news, I am planning a six week whirlwind tour or Europe starting in October and lasting six weeks. This is an absolute dream trip. The excitement that it stirs in me is absolutely indescribable. I will be going to England, France, The Netherlands, Germany, Czech Republic, Austria, Italy, and Spain. I will be traveling backpacker style with lots of trains and hostels involved.
WORK
Well, I’m hating/loving work these days. I often feel incredibly incompetent–even after a year. I have given up on feeling adequate at my job and embraced the feeling of being completely useless compared to the doctors and senior nurses. Perhaps one day I will think to myself, “holy crap! I think I’m actually capable of doing this to the standards of my coworkers, charge nurses, and educators,” but that day seems to be getting farther and farther away, rather than closer.
I’m still working in a 25 bed ICU that cares for Trauma, burn, neuro, and med/surg patients. I think part of the difficulty is that, since the ICU lacks any sort of specialization, the amount of knowledge and learning required seems endless. The more I learn, the more incompetent I feel.
Well, that’s about all that’s going on. Hopefully I won’t wait so long to update!
July 24th, 2009 at 17:20
Good luck to you, Sean…keep at it! You never know where you’ll end up.
I’m so jealous…wish I could travel with you. Brings back lots of memories.
July 25th, 2009 at 00:20
the last time i wrote in my blog was about april b/c i lost my blogging drive too. and have felt really guilty about it! i was just about to write a post like yours when i read yours on my newsfeed! great timing
i feel less alone now, and somewhat motivated =)
July 31st, 2009 at 09:34
Mmm,all your travel plans sound wonderful. I haven’t been to Victoria since I was a kid but I’m going to Tofino in 2 weeks,so that’s ok!
Thanks for the update:)
August 12th, 2009 at 17:50
Hey sometimes I am a lazy nurse blogger too! What started out as a way to communicate my thoughts and happenings as a new nurse started to sound repetitive so sometimes I just write just to write: but most times I need to feel connected to other people who feel the same way. I mean it is hard after pulling long shifts at the hospital to come home to family and friends and answer the question: “So how was your day?” It is just impossible for anyone to understand. So I find myself here.
That said: Have a splendid trip! Sounds like fun! Relax and enjoy.
December 3rd, 2010 at 19:46
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